It sucks being the guilty one. All I want to do is go out to the woods without supplies, to somewhere no one will ever find me and die alone. That would be the easy way out. Instead, I have to face the music, over and over while “time heals” this mess I’ve made. I don’t expect things to be better overnight, or to even to be forgiven my transgressions.
Even if I had no thought of how it would make her or the rest of my family feel, I could never do that for my daughter’s sake. Instead, I’m here, trying my best to make things right again. I won’t do anything foolish, but don’t blame me for praying for a catastrophic accident that ends it all.
This will be my last run for a while. Did the route ATN w/ SF hill. Windy & cold this time. Knee hurt like crazy-cakes from the get go. On the plus side, I saw three bright blue flashes in the sky like transformers were blowing up. :)
No running today or Friday. I was saving myself yesterday for today, then I didn’t get up in in time to run early.
Weighed-in @ 180!
3 miles ATN. First run with new shoes (ADIDAS Supernova Sequence 4M). Wore an ace bandage knee brace/wrap. 30 minutes post-run and no knee pain.
4.5 miles around the lake. First 20 minutes were 1 minute sprint/walk intervals. Then 1.5 miles continuous jogging followed by about 0.75 miles walking cool down.